kitty hoarder has pangs at selling. You too?

[Kayla Woodrunner]

I really don't know how people do it. Does anyone else ever get that feeling, "Man, this cat is special. Why am I selling this?" Does this feeling happen a lot?

For a year now, I've been breeding and mostly keeping my cats. I recently got addicted to going to auctions. So now I sell kittycats at auction to feed the addiction. (Had to quit job because mom was sick so otherwise wouldn't be selling kitties; more a breeder type person than a seller)

I am putting up a kitty for tomorrow but I keep staring at it. I handed in the notecard when it was boxed so the decision is made. I birthed the kitty to take pictures and found out I love the way it looks. I've been selling for a couple weeks and felt ok with it but feel different this time.

This time, I did an intellectual exercise to find a kitty with all retired traits: fur, eyes, shade, tail, ears, whisker shape. But now the emotions kicked in because I can see the real kitty. Sighs. It doesn't help that I don't have another kitty like it in the cattery because I dabbled in that eye for only a short time. Out of 1600 boxes, it is the only one I have like that. (Ok, so I'm a hoarder and I tried out a lot of combos. It is fun experimenting and seeing what I can make)

Anyways, I was just wondering. do you ever get that feeling too? the "why am I selling this?"